Undeniably, I still feel quite very uncomfortable most od the times and i really dunno what can and should i do. I clearly know that it impossible anymore and this feeling is getting stronger and stronger. It is just so different from last time and I really know it and I have been trying very hard to forget and not tink of it. But I just cant seem to do it really and I really hate this kind of uncertain and never-ending kind of feeling. It is just not getting me anywhere and I oso dunno wat can I do!!!!!!! ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!! Super pissed off with myself lahz!!!! And I mean really PISSED OFF!! I hate myself!! HAte myself for being such a coward! Hate myself for still being affected by his every actions despite things ended so long ago. Hate myself for still thinking and missing him all the times. HAte myself for still being so overly concern bout him!HAte myself for not able to let off gracefully and holding on to something that no longer belonged to me! HAte myself for not able to focus on things that I do. HAte myself for not revising tat much when everbody is already far in front. HAte mysef for for being so naiive and stupid. Hate myself for still hallucinating and fascinating. Hate myself for lots and lots of tinks!!!!
I JUST HATE MYSELF!!!!!!








-memories start to flood my mind again =( Can someone just save me?? I really dun want to carry on like this anymore. I am serious tired, very very tired of all these.

Alone in the dark and I am scared, very vey scared!!