Having aches all over this few days, dunno if it is because of the weather. My ankle starts to hurt terribly also. Must the the after-effects as i sprained my ankle in Nov sec 3. Haix, such a painful memory. Having swollen ankle for almost 1 year n suffering from the pain from it!!! My dad say it must be me using my hp to sms when walking down the stairs, BUT its not!!! the truth is actually tat i had just met sl tat day to show him the present tat we shared for vk's present. Then i went home, thinking about him and how to handle the issue bout us. Therefore, i ended up having my thoughts elsewhere and fell off the stairs just outside my hse!! Haha, then i swallowed all the pain to open my hse door b4 fainting in my hse. Haix. Nw its hurting agn=(

hmmm, I saw him in the interchange the other day. He was with his ger classmate.Initially, i tot they were together, but after some thoughts, it does not matter nw who is he with, isnt it? Although it is difficult, but i will still do things in my way and try to forget. My heart thumped so hard and i dun even dare to look at them. Tears started welling up but i kept it down. the same journey, same bus route, same environment, but he is no longer by my side but someone else's. same thing afterall, i still nid time!! Wonder how long i will need??

Got back my chem results this few days, quite bad, coz i scaped a pass. Haix, i swear i will study harder n try my best not to think bout him anymore so s not to get distracted. He gave up my hands for the second time and tis time, its when i felt so stress and tired, so vulnerable, needed him so much by my side to support him, but he still gave up my hands, leaving me alone to walk this through. So i should not let him affect me jux like he had in my JCTs. I shld b more determined this time and spend all my time on my studies. Chem, Maths, Physics, Econs, and not forgetting GP!!!!!

Came across this song, it somehow explained my feelings but not exactly also. But most of the meaning ba.

走了那么远发 现你不在身边
独自走过了什么自己都不了解
未来的蓝图应该有你
不该只剩叹息
只是偶尔泪流不停

坚强的理由 只是自己骗自己
你眼中的恐惧 说什么都多余
付出的一切值不值
得永远不会有答案
只有天知道我有多么爱你

一颗心属于一个人 在爱情里什么算公平
爱的深也伤的深 是不是催眠了自己
一颗心属于我自己 爱情里找不到公平
而当你最后选择了逃避
我学会不公平