It had been quite a while since i last talk to him. Feeling a bit of weird and uneasy, but i will learn to adapt to it. Hmmm, he seems to get along with it pretty well, but me??!! Haix, cant even concentrate in my studies and JCTs is just a few days later. OMG!!! Kept day dreaming in the day and distractrd in the night. I really want to sit down and study really hard for my exams but teach me how!!!!

Back to the issue betw us, actually, I dunno if we still stand a chance to be together again. I guess he sumhow felt it that way also. Or maybe he does not even knoe if we should be together again ba. Maybe he just cannot adapt and tats why he;s willing to try again. I got a feeling that as time passes, he will gradually forget and can adapt to the present situation. Thats when i really get out of his life ba?

My hearts still hurts whenever i see the msgs he had send. I dunno why bt sumhow it just hurts and memories will flash by suddenly, reminding me of everything we once had and do together. But i really lost my sense of direction and do not know if we should continue and start all over again. There is just sumthing dere to stop me from trying things out again. Hope i get my answer soon ba.

I dun really agree to the things he's doing presently, but i dun haf a right to stop him. Even if i m still his gf, i dun tink he will listen also. Mayb i am being too conservative, but i still feels tat things will go really wrong and tat should not be the places he should hang out at this time. But wat can i do?? I cant even help myself. Just pray hard that things will be smooth for him ba.

I guess i should also learn to get on with my life soon like what he's trying now. All the best and Jia you GIRL!!!=)

Gd luck to my JCTs!!

confused and tired =(