Its a new day again. My feelings and mind are still in a state of confusion. Maybe I had not got over it and i will need more time to adapt to the change. Things had really come to an end. Since he can do it with such ease, why cant I??!!! So, i've decided to to really let go from today onwards. Although i know that its impossible to do it immdeiately, but at least, it shall be a start.

I know i should not think of him anymore, but i dunno why, i will still worry for him. I worry that maybe that will happen or this will happen. haix, please really take good care of urself k. Dun make me worry.I got a sudden feeling of loniness and sadness, nut i know it will be just a phase i had to go through. Since you feel that its for the better of both two, maybe your decision is not rash but rationale.( although i dun really agree because i had lots of thinking from the first day we got together and i am really happy to haf you by my side) But anyway, from now on, i shall use all my energy to study for the super important exam!! and make my stand up tall again.

Today i am going out with my class gers!!1 yea!! At least i do not need to stay at home and rot! haha, Shopping spree today. Hope it will be enjoyable. And also, i've decide to make this blog no more public. Haha, why shld i hide?? but this is just purely somewhere i will write down all my thoughts. So if there is something you feel its stupid or feel offened, please do not take it too heart.

Finally home after the trip to town. Felt really moody especially on my way home. I cant stop myself from thinking all sorts of things, but i know i had to!! I force myself to do so and i do not want to feel sad and heart broken again!!! I had shed enough tears for him. ENOUGH MEANS ENOUGH!! I dun want to b sad again!! I want to haf a normal life, no more heartaches, no more tears!! Can i just haf a normal life, the one i used to haf? so carefree, so cheerful, everytink seems so beautiful??

Had a talk with Brandon, din feel beta very much, bt thx for being my listening ear, coz i cant find one. So pathetic right? but i just dunno hu to confide in, tot of HY bt it seems tat we had drift apart and not s close s the past le. She seems so cold to me whenever i tel her tinks, maybe she just dun wan to listen to me ba. Maybe she finds me irritating n tinks liddat. haix

Will miracles happen?.......