suddenly, i realise that our relationship is so weak and vulnerable to al kinds of problems. haix, i admit that what i said on thurs may be too overboard bt i dun mean what i say. its not the first day u noe me! so i am this kind of person to u. haix, but it is true that i realise that i m starting not to know u at times. so, telling u the truth or what i feel is the wrong tink to do? then shld i keep everytink from u? then wat shld i do??? it seems s if wat i do is always wrong. you say that by telling my mum everytink will make u unable to face her, then writing in ur blog and making our relationship known to all ur close frenz is correct? then hw m i going to face them???!!! just being concerned bout my bf can lead to such big prob nw, then if i dun care bout u will it make tinks beta?? mayb it is also bout hw i phrase my words ba. bt i haf not said tat i dun trust u. if i m then i would not even talk to u after thurs. but hw m i going to believe u fully when u haf once let go of me bcoz of a absurb reason? plus i dun even trust my families tat much too, or rather, i shld say i trust no one truly ba. at least for nw, i haf not found sum1 whom i can speak frankly to bout all the little secrets i haf, all the unhappiness i faced at home in sch and all the probs i faced. to many, i may have a perfect family bt i dun feel tat actually. it is only these years that tinks r getting better. for nw, i m really tired. TIRED. it is not me who started the argument! its YOU!! you r the one who started saying tat i dun trust u n tinks lik tat. bt cant i even haf some reservations???!!! i really dun wan to tok bout tis at tis point of time. all these only show me tat mayb it is a mistake right from the start. i dun wan to feel it tis way but you actually made me feel so.







exhausted.
girl